Tuesday, July 3, 2012

In the Weeds

We have been making good progress with Cy until last week.  He seems to have reverted back to grieving, wanting to be any place but home, crying for the car and not eating. It can be a little disheartening as we were making such great strides. I think him being sick, again is catalyst for our set back.  I have been around our other friends with adoptive kids and I feel like our situation is so different. I mean I understand we will all have different situations but man this can be rough! 

I just wish Cy would trust we are good for him, will always be here and never leave. If he got that, it would be so happy. One thing can be a game changer; giving him medicine, changing diapers, putting a shirt on, pulling in the driveway...they all can be game changers. I have noticed myself coming to bat with great patience when I see Jeremy break. I think the hardest for Jeremy is giving him medicine. We have tried every sneak attack and finally we just have to use the syringe. He screams and cries with fear and who wouldn't when you are having something shoved in your mouth...but man we have tried spoons, hiding it in drinks, the medicine spoons, bottles, etc. I mean what doctor gives you a prescription for Amoxicillin for 2x a day for 10 days! OMG! I seriously want to cry!

We knew this would be tough and I know in 6 months we will look back and barely remember, but being in the shit is tough. According to our social worker the other few families she is working with are doing GREAT! So what are we doing wrong? He knows we are mommy and daddy, I am no longer worried about attachment but these battles! Is he testing us? Do we hold our ground? Is he really having a set back?

Sorry to be Debbie Downer but I just had to get this time off my chest. It is very cathartic to put the frustrations out there!

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